FRIEND

YOU ARE LATE! YOU PLANNED EVERYTHING WRONG AGAIN, AND NOW YOUR FRIEND WILL BE WAITING FOR YOU IN THE RAIN. YOU RUN AND YOU GET EXTREMELLY WET. OH, AS YOU PASS BY A STORE YOU SEE A PAIR OF BEAUTIFUL ORANGE BOOTS! [[GET INSIDE THE STORE]] [[GO TO YOUR FRIEND]]

YOU ARE ALREADY LATE SO A COUPLE OF MINUTES MORE WONT MAKE A DIFFERENCE, YOU ENTER THE SHOP YOU ASK FOR THE ORANGE BOOTS IN NUMBER 39 OH! THE GIRL IN THE SHOP IS SOOOO HOT! AND THE BOOTS FIT PERFECTLY! BUT IT'S QUITE EXPENSIVE, AND IT'S THE END OF THE MONTH. THESE WOULD BE YOUR LAST MONEY. [[BUY THE BOOTS]] [[DON'T BUY THE BOOTS]]

YOUR FRIEND IS WAITING IN THE RAIN. YOU ARE VERY LATE! BUT YOUR FRIEND IS NOT MAD, AS YOU EXPECTED. SHE SEEMS MORE SAD THAN ANGRY. YOU STAND IN THE RAIN, OUTSIDE FROM A HAIR SALON AND YOU BOTH FEEL VERY COLD. YOU SUGGEST THAT YOU GO INSIDE THE HAIR SALON TO WAIT FOR THE RAIN TO STOP [[GO INSIDE THE HAIRSALON]]

YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE, YOU THINK. AND YOU DECIDE TO BUY THE BOOTS THE GIRL FROM THE STORE SMILES AT YOU. [[GO TO YOUR FRIEND]] [[FLIRT WITH THE GIRL]]

IT'S TOO EXPENSIVE, AND YOU START THINKING THAT MAYBE THE ORANGE BOOTS ARE TOO FANCY AND YOU WOULDN'T WEAR IT SO OFTEN. YOU DECIDE TO NOT BUY THE BOOTS. THE GIRL FROM THE STORE SMILES AT YOU. [[GO TO YOUR FRIEND]] [[FLIRT WITH THE GIRL]]

YOU FLIRT WITH THE GIRL AND THAT FILLS YOU WITH CONFIDENCE. YOU LEAVE THE STORE WITH HER CONTACT. [[GO TO YOUR FRIEND]]

FINALLY, IT'S WARM THE SMELL OF THE HAIRSALON REMINDS YOU OF THE HOUSE OF YOUR FIRST BOYFRIEND YOU SIT IN A COUCH. YOU TAKE OUT YOUR PHONE AND REMEMBER THAT YOU HAVE TO SEND SOME IMPORTANT EMAILS FOR YOUR JOB. YOU START TYPING THE EMAILS, BUT YOU ARE NOT SURE WETHER TO USE EMOJI OR NOT. IT'S NOT A VERY FORMAL EMAIL, BUT ALSO YOU DON'T KNOW IF IT IS APPROPRIATE USING THIS EMOJI. [[EMOJI]] [[NO EMOJI]]

YOU DON'T USE THE EMOJI, EVEN THOUGH YOU LOVE EMOJIS. YOU GET DISTRACTED AND NOW YOU SCROLL AND START WATCHING INSTAGRAM STORIES! YOU THINK OF WAXING YOUR MOUSTACHE YOU THINK OF YOUR COUSIN WHO GOT MARRIED SOME WOMAN SAYS IT'S YOUR FRIEND'S TURN FOR A HAIRCUT YOU DON'T REALLY GET IT, BUT YOU WEREN'T LISTENING ANYWAY YOU ACTUALLY THINK THAT IT IS IMPORTANT FOR YOUR FRIEND TO GET A NEW HAIRCUT. SHE HAS THE SAME HAIRSTYLE FOR AGES, AND SHE REFUSES TO MAKE CHANGES IN HER LIFE. YOU SMILE SUPPORTIVELY AND SHE GOES. YOU GO BACK AT WATCHING STORIES YOU SEE THE STORY OF THE HOT GIRL YOU LIKED! [[REACT TO THE STORY]] [[KEEP SCROLLING]]

YOU USE THE EMOJI, BECAUSE THAT WOULD MAKE THE COMMUNICATION MORE PERSONAL. YOU GET DISTRACTED AND NOW YOU SCROLL AND START WATCHING INSTAGRAM STORIES! YOU THINK OF WAXING YOUR MOUSTACHE YOU THINK OF YOUR COUSIN WHO GOT MARRIED SOME WOMAN SAYS IT'S YOUR FRIEND'S TURN FOR A HAIRCUT YOU DON'T REALLY GET IT, BUT YOU WEREN'T LISTENING ANYWAY YOU ACTUALLY THINK THAT IT IS IMPORTANT FOR YOUR FRIEND TO GET A NEW HAIRCUT. SHE HAS THE SAME HAIRSTYLE SINCE FOREVER, AND SHE REFUSES TO MAKE CHANGES IN HER LIFE. YOU SMILE SUPPORTIVELY AND SHE GOES. YOU GO BACK AT WATCHING STORIES YOU SEE THE STORY OF THE HOT GIRL YOU LIKED! [[REACT TO THE STORY]] [[KEEP SCROLLING]]

YOU HEART REACT TO THE GIRL'S STORY. SUDDENLY YOU FEEL THIS WAS STUPID. YOU CONTINUE SCROLLING NOW YOU SEE THE STORY OF YOUR EX CLASSMATE. WHY DO THEY SEEM SO SUCCESFUL AND SETTLED? YOU STILL HAVE A HARD TIME WATERING YOUR PLANTS AND DRINKING WATER YOURSELF YOU REMEMBER THAT YOU EVEN FORGOT TO PRESS SEND TO THAT EMAIL. YOU FEEL LIKE THERE IS A TINY PERSON SQEEZING YOUR CHEST. YOU DECIDE TO STOP SCROLLING AND DO SOMETHING! [[ANSWER TO ALL THE UNSEEN MESSAGES]] [[READ A MAGAZINE]] [[READ THE NEWS]] [[DECIDE WHAT TO EAT]] [[CALL MUM]] [[GO OUT TO SMOKE]] [[TAKE A SELFIE]] [[SLEEP]] [[THINK OF A PRESENT FOR YOUR SISTER'S BDAY]] [[SCROLL IN YOUR FAVORITE MEME PAGE]] [[TALK TO THE LADIES]]

NO, REACTING WOULD BE STUPID BEACUSE THEN SHE WOULD KNOW YOU LIKE HER AND SHE WOULD FREAK OUT AND SHE WOULD NEVER REPLY AND YOU COULDN'T SEND SOMETHING AFTER THAT BECAUSE THAT WOULD SEEM DESPERATE. YOU CONTINUE SCROLLING NOW YOU SEE THE STORY OF YOUR EX CLASSMATE. WHY DO THEY SEEM SO SUCCESFUL AND SETTLED? YOU STILL HAVE A HARD TIME WATERING YOUR PLANTS AND DRINKING WATER YOURSELF YOU REMEMBER THAT YOU EVEN FORGOT TO PRESS SEND TO THAT EMAIL. YOU FEEL LIKE THERE IS A TINY PERSON SQEEZING YOUR CHEST. YOU DECIDE TO STOP SCROLLING AND DO SOMETHING! THERE ARE A COUPLE OF THINGS YOU KNOW YOU HAVE TO DO. ANSWER TO ALL THE UNSEEN MESSAGES

YOU HAVE SOME UNSEEN MESAGES THAT YOU WANT TO REPLY BUT YOU KEEP AVOIDING WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS YOU FEEL LIKE THERE ARE A MILLION LITTLE ANTS IN YOUR HEAD LIFE WOULD BE SO EASIER IF YOU JUST REPLIED ON TIME AND THEN YOU WOULDN'T HAVE TO WORRY THAT YOU NEVER REPLIED TO YOUR EX AND THEN SHE WOULDN'T BE MAD AT YOU AND THEN YOU COULD ALSO JUST ANSWER THE PHONE WHEN YOU GET A CALL FROM DAD, OR ANSWER THE PHONE WHEN ANYONE CALLS SO THAT YOU DON'T CONSTANTLY FEEL THAT YOU HAVEN'T ACTED RIGHT, THAT YOU LET EVERYBODY DOWN, THEN YOU MAYBE YOU WOULDN'T - WHY ARE RELATIONSHIPS SO DIFFICULT TO TAKE CARE OF? THE MILLION ANTS IN YOUR HEAD WALK TOWARDS YOUR EYES AND TURN TO TEARS THAT WANT TO FALL. YOU THINK OF REPLYING TO YOUR BOSS IS IMPOSSIBLE, YOU THINK REPLYING TO ANYONE IS IMPOSSIBLE, NOW EVERYONE'S EXPECTATIONS FOR A FUN SATURDAY NIGHT IS FALLING IN YOUR BACK LIKE A MILLION MESSENGER SOUNDS DRILLING DOWN YOUR LUNGS. YOU START FEELING FOMO FOR THE PARTY YOU DIDN'T GO TO LAST WEEK. YOU FEEL LIKE THE TINY PERSON WHO LIVES IN YOUR CHEST HAS NOW TIED YOUR VOCAL CHORDS [[TAKE A DEEP BREATH]]

YOU DECIDE TO READ A MAGAZINE YOU CHOOSE ONE AND START LOOKING AT THE IMAGES YOU THINK OF THAT CRINGE THING YOU SAID WHEN YOU WERE DRUNK YOU TRY TO CONCENTRATE IN READING AN ARTICLE ABOUT FASHION. BUT IT'S IMPOSSIBLE. ALL THE LETTERS BLUR AND THE COLORFULL IMAGES ARE STROBING. THE SOUND OF THE LADIES TALKING NOW SOUNDS SO ANNOYING.YOU LOOK AT THE PAGE BUT ALL YOU SEE IS CROPPED IMAGES, ALL YOU SEE IS CROPPED IMAGES IT MAKES YOU FEEL DIZZY, YOU FEEL BUSY, YOU FEEL ANGRY. YOUR MIND TRAVELS IN PLACES YOU DON'T WANT TO GO, WHY IS IT SO DIFFICULT FOR YOU TO CONCENTRATE. YOU THINK THAT MAYBE YOU SHOULDN'T SPEND THAT MUCH TIME IN TIK TOK. WHY CAN'T YOU READ A BOOK. YOU THINK OF THE LAST BOOK YOU READ, IT WAS TWO YEARS AGO. YOU THINK OF THIS BOOK AND A SHARP FEELING OF NOSTALGIA COMES IN, YOU THINK OF THE LAST SENTENSE OF THE BOOK AGAIN AND AGAIN THE TINY PERSON WHO LIVES IN YOUR CHEST NOW GOES IN YOUR STOMACH AND SQEEZES. [[TAKE A DEEP BREATH]]

YOU DECIDE TO READ THE NEWS IT'S DIFFICULT TO BE UP TO DATE WHILE BEING SO BUSY. YOU START READING THE NEWS AND IMMEDIATELY YOU FEEL ANGRY. YOU KNEW ALREADY THAT THE POLITICAL SITUATION IS FUCKED BUT WHEN YOU REMEMBER YOUR HEART WANTS TO GO OUT OF YOUR BODY YOU THINK THAT MAYBE IT'S BETTER FOR THIS WORLD TO END, YOU FEEL HOPELESS, YOU FEEL GUILTY FOR WATCHING NETFLIX INSTEAD OF GOING TO THAT DEMONSTRATION, YOU FEEL THAT YOUR EARS JUMP OUT OF A TOASTER, WHY IS EVERYTHING SO DISGUISTING? YOU THINK OF YOUR DOG THAT WAS LOST WHEN YOU WERE TEN YEARS OLD. YOU THINK OF INJUSTICE AND YOU REMEMBER THAT YOU KNOW SO LITTLE THINGS ABOUT HISTORY AND THAT MAKES YOU FEEL DISAPPOINTED WITH YOURSELF, NOW ALL YOU SEE IS CROPPED IMAGES FROM SCHOOL HISTORY BOOKS. THE TINY PERSON THAT LIVES IN YOUR CHEST NOW MOVES IN YOUR HEART AND PUNCHES HARD [[TAKE A DEEP BREATH]]

YOU START FEELING A BIT HUNGRY, SO YOU THINK IT IS A GOOD IDEA TO THINK OF WHAT TO EAT. YOU THINK OF GETTING A BURGER, BUT THEN YOU REMEMBER THAT YOU DON'T HAVE ENOUGH MONEY. YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU WORK THAT MUCH AND STILL NOT GETTING ENOUGH MONEY AND THAT MAKES YOU ANGRY, YOU IMMEDIATELY START GETING ANXIOUS ABOUT YOUR LIFE. YOU HAVE TO WORK HARDER EVEN THOUGH THAT'S UNFAIR. YOU HAVE TO STOP GOING TO BARS THAT OFTEN, YOU HAVE TO SAVE MONEY IF YOU WANT TO DO THIS MASTER, YOU HAVE TO COOK MORE OFTEN. BUT HOW ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO WORK FOR TEN HOURS AND TAKE CARE OF YOUR RELATIONSHIPS AND HAVE A GIRLFRIEND AND WORK OUT AND CLEAN YOUR HOUSE AND VISIT YOUR GRANDMOTHER AND GO TO THE MOVIES AND FIX YOUR CAR AND SEND THE TAX RETURN AND WAX YOUR MOUSTACHE ''AND'' COOK? ALL THE THINGS IN YOUR TO DO LIST ARE NOW TURNING TO BRICKS. THE TINY PERSON THAT LIVES IN YOUR CHEST GOES IN YOUR SHOULDERS AND THROWS BRICKS. [[TAKE A DEEP BREATH]]

YOU DECIDE TO CALL MUM. YOU THINK IT'S A GOOD IDEA BECAUSE YOU REALLY WANT TO CALL HER MORE OFTEN BUT YOU ARE DON'T BECAUSE YOU ARE BUSY. RIGHT BEFORE YOU CALL YOU THINK WHAT WILL YOU TELL HER WHEN SHE ASKS YOUR NEWS AND SUDDENLY YOU FEEL LIKE SOMEONE JUST DROPPED ICE IN YOUR BACK. YOU KNOW THAT IF YOU DON'T SOUND CONFIDENT ENOUGH YOUR MUM WILL KNOW YOU ARE STRESSED AND THEN SHE WILL BE WORRIED ABOUT YOU AND THEN YOU WILL PROBABLY CRY. THEN YOU GET ANGRY AT MUM FOR NOT TRUSTING YOU, BUT THEN YOU REMEMBER THAT YOU DON'T EVEN TRUST YOURSELF, AND THEN YOU GET ANGRY AT YOURSELF, THEN YOU GET ANGRY AT YOUR THERAPIST FOR POINTING OUT THAT YOU DON'T TRUST YOURSELF AND THEN YOU GET ANGRY AT THE TWO LADIES TALKING ACROSS THE ROOM. YOU KNOW YOU ARE NOT A TEENAGER ANYMORE BUT SOMETIMES IT'S REALLY HARD NOT TO ACT LIKE A TEENAGER WHEN IT COMES TO MUM. THE LITTLE PERSON THAT LIVES IN YOUR CHEST IS JUMPING AROUND [[TAKE A DEEP BREATH]]

YOU DECIDE THAT IT IS A GOOD IDEA TO GO OUT AND SMOKE. BUT WHEN YOU TAKE OUT YOUR TOBACCO TO ROLL A CHIGARETE YOU UNDERSTAND THAT IT IS ALMOST OVER. SHIT! YOU SMOKED A LOT YESTERDAY. YOU START WORRYING ABOUT YOUR HEALTH. YOU THINK OF ALL THE TRASH FOOD, ALCOHOL, CHIGARETES IN YOUR BODY AND YOU FEEL THAT YOUR FLESH HAS TURN BROWN INSIDE. YOU DECIDE TO STOP SMOKING AND START EATING VEGETABLES AND START WORKING OUT AND FOLLOW YOUR SKINCARE ROUTINE AND STRECH EVERY MORNING AND WAX YOUR MOUSTACHE AND STOP EATING BURGERS AND STOP TAKING DRUGS AT PARTIES AND DRINK A LOT OF WATER. YOU ARE NOW NERVOUS AND THAT MAKES YOU WANNA SMOKE. YOU USED TO HATE THE IDEA OF SELF CARE BUT YOU KNOW TAKING CARE OF YOUR BODY IS IMPORTANT. THINKING OF ALL THE BAD HABBITS STARTS TAKING OVER, AND NOW YOU START THINKING ABOUT YOUR TOXIC RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR EX AND NOW YOU START THINKING OF ALL THE WRONG THINGS YOU HAVE EVER SAID AND NOW YOU START THINKING OF ALL THE WRONG THINGS YOU HAVE DONE. THE TINY PERSON THAT LIVES IN YOUR CHEST IS NOW IN YOUR LUNCGS SMOKING [[TAKE A DEEP BREATH]]

YOU DECIDE TO TAKE A SELFIE! YOU LOOK AT YOURSELF IN THE CAMERA AND YOU NOTICE YOUR MOUSTACHE, THEN YOU NOTICE YOUR DARK EYE CIRCLES AND THEN YOU NOTICE YOUR PIMPLE AND THEN YOU NOTICE YOUR ''WRINKLE''. YOU CAN'T TAKE YOUR EYES OFF THIS LITTLE WRINKLE BETWEEN YOUR EYEBROWS. IT FREAKS YOU OUT, EVEN THOUGH YOU DON'T REALLY CARE ABOUT IT. YOU GET REALLY UPSET AND NO POSSIBLE POSSITION CAN MAKE YOUR PHOTO NICE. YOU DON'T FEEL HOT. YOU START THINKING THAT YOUR SKIN WILL GET WORSE AND WORSE AND THAT YOUR GRANMA WAS LYING AND EATING FRUITS WOULDN'T HELP YOUR SKIN, YOU REALIZE THAT YOU HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH WHAT YOU THOUGHT ABOUT YOUR AGE, YOU THINK THAT YOUR EX CLASSMATES ARE NOW HAVING BABIES BUT YOU ARE A BABY YOURSELF. YOU ARE A BABY WITH WRINKLES AND YOU KNOW WHAT? YOU DON'T EVEN MAKE SENSE OF TIK TOK REALLY. YOU THINK OF THE TIME YOU WASTED PLAYING TICHU IN THE FIRST YEAR OF UNI, YOU THINK OF THE TIME WASTED IN NIGHT OUTS YOU DON'T EVEN REMEMBER, YOU THINK OF THE TIME WASTED WITH YOUR EX TOXIC RELATIONSHIP. THE TINY PERSON THAT LIVES IN YOUR CHEST IS NOW BETWEEN YOUR EYEBROWS AND SQEEZES THEM [[TAKE A DEEP BREATH]]

THIS COUCH IS COMFORTABLE, AND YOU ARE VERY TIRED. YOU TRY THINK OF SOMETHING TO DO, BUT YOU JUST WANT TO CLOSE YOUR EYES FOR A LITTLE BIT. IT SEEMS THAT STAYING UP LATE AND WAKING UP EARLY FOR WORK IS NOT SO SUISTAINABLE. BEFORE YOU EVEN THINK ABOUT IT, YOUR EYES GET HEAVIER AND YOU FALL ASLEEP. FOR A MOMENT YOU SLEEP IN PEACE. BUT THAT LASTS ONLY FOR A MOMENT. SOON ENOUGH, ANNOYING DREAMS COME. YOU ARE WALKING UP THE STREET NEAR YOUR HOUSE, THE ONE WITH THE BARS AND THE HUNDREDS OF PEOPLE OUTISIDE YOU HAVE TO GO TO WORK BUT EVERYONE AROUND DRINKS BEERS IT IS VERY CROWDED AND EVERYONE GRABS YOUR ASS ON THE WAY. YOU GO FASTER AND FINALLY YOU ARE ALONE BUT YOU LOOK AT YOUR ASS AND THERE ARE A HUNDRED HANDS HANGING. YOU TRY TO TAKE IT OFF BUT YOU CAN'T YOUR EX COMES BY BUT SHE DOESN'T SAY HI, YOU CAN'T REMEMBER WHY BUT YOU KNOW SHE IS MAD AT YOU YOU LOOK DOWN THE STREET BUT ALL YOU SEE IS CROPPED IMAGES. THE TINY PERSON WHO LIVES IN YOUR CHEST IS NOW TRYING TO WAKE YOU UP [[TAKE A DEEP BREATH]]

IT'S YOUR SISTER'S BIRTHDAY ON FRIDAY AND YOU STILL HAVEN'T DECIDED FOR A GIFT. YOU START THINKING OF GIFT IDEAS, BUT IT IS REALLY HARD BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT REALLY CLOSE TO YOUR SISTER. YOU HAVE TRIED A MILLION TIMES TO ACCEPT THIS BUT EVERY TIME YOU FEEL SAD. MAYBE YOU SHOULD GET HER A BOOK OR A NICE ACCESSORY OR A GADGET OR A GOOD COOKING KNIFE OR MAYBE YOU COULD JUST GET HER SOMETHING HANDMADE BY YOU BECAUSE YOU ALSO HAVE NO MONEY. YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU WORK THAT MUCH AND STILL NOT GETTING ENOUGH MONEY AND THAT MAKES YOU ANGRY, YOU IMMEDIATELY START GETING ANXIOUS ABOUT YOUR LIFE. MAYBE YOUR SISTER IS RIGHT FOR JUDGING YOUR LIFE CHOICES. YOU HAVE TO WORK HARDER EVEN THOUGH THAT'S UNFAIR. YOU HAVE TO STOP GOING TO BARS THAT OFTEN, YOU HAVE TO SAVE MONEY IF YOU WANT TO DO THIS MASTER, YOU HAVE TO COOK MORE OFTEN. BUT HOW ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO WORK FOR TEN HOURS AND TAKE CARE OF YOUR RELATIONSHIPS AND HAVE A GIRLFRIEND AND WORK OUT AND CLEAN YOUR HOUSE AND VISIT YOUR GRANDMOTHER AND GO TO THE MOVIES AND FIX YOUR CAR AND SEND THE TAX RETURN AND WAX YOUR MOUSTACHE ''AND'' COOK? THE TINY PERSON WHO LIVES IN YOUR CHEST IS NOW IN YOUR MOUTH BLOCKING THE AIR FROM ENTERING YOUR BODY [[TAKE A DEEP BREATH]]

YOU DECIDE TO SCROLL IN YOUR FAVORITE MEME PAGE, WHICH IS DIFFERENT THAN SCROLLING IN YOUR FEED. YOU THINK THAT IT'S A GOOD IDEA BECAUSE THIS ALWAYS MAKES YOU HAVE FUN. YOU START SCROLLING BUT YOU REALIZE THAT THERE ARE NO NEW MEMES. YOU HAVE SEEN EVERYTHING AND THAT KIND OF FREAKS YOU OUT. YOU SPEND WAY TOO MUCH TIME IN YOUR PHONE. YOU LOOK AT THE PAGE BUT ALL YOU SEE IS CROPPED IMAGES, ALL YOU SEE IS CROPPED IMAGES IT MAKES YOU FEEL DIZZY, YOU FEEL BUSY, YOU FEEL ANGRY. YOUR MIND TRAVELS IN PLACES YOU DON'T WANT TO GO, WHY IS IT SO DIFFICULT FOR YOU TO CONCENTRATE. YOU KNOW THAT YOU SHOULDN'T SPEND THAT MUCH TIME IN TIK TOK. WHY CAN'T YOU READ A BOOK. YOU THINK OF THE LAST BOOK YOU READ, IT WAS TWO YEARS AGO. YOU THINK OF THIS BOOK AND A SHARP FEELING OF NOSTALGIA COMES IN, YOU THINK OF THE LAST SENTENSE OF THE BOOK AGAIN AND AGAIN THE TINY PERSON WHO LIVES IN YOUR CHEST IS NOW IN YOUR ASS AND LIGHTS A FIRE [[TAKE A DEEP BREATH]]

YOU THINK THAT IT IS A GOOD IDEA TO LEAVE YOUR PHONE ASIDE AND HAVE SOME REAL TALK WITH THE LADIES WHO SIT IN THE OPPOSITE COUCH. BUT AS SOON AS YOU PAY ATTENTION AT THE LADIES CHIT CHAT YOU REALIZE THEY KEEP SAYING HOMOPHOBIC THINGS AND THAT MAKES YOU ANGRY. YOU KNOW THAT PEOPLE ARE SHIT BUT SOMETIMES YOU FORGET BECAUSE YOU LIVE IN YOUR BUBBLE OF FRIENDS. YOU THINK OF YOUR FIRST DATE WITH A GIRL AND REMEMBER THAT AT THIS VERY FIRST DATE YOU WERE BULLIED BY A GROUP OF BOYS TRYING TO FLIRT WITH YOU. YOUR EYBROWS COME CLOSER AND YOU FEEL FRUSTRATED YOU FEEL ANGRY, YOU FEEL.... SAD. YOU THINK THAT MAYBE IT'S BETTER FOR THIS WORLD TO END, YOU FEEL HOPELESS, YOU FEEL GUILTY FOR WATCHING NETFLIX INSTEAD OF GOING TO THAT DEMONSTRATION, YOU FEEL THAT YOUR EARS JUMP OUT OF A TOASTER, WHY IS EVERYTHING SO DISGUISTING? YOU THINK OF YOUR DOG THAT WAS LOST WHEN YOU WERE TEN YEARS OLD. THE TINY PERSON THAT LIVES IN YOUR CHEST NOW MOVES IN YOUR HEART AND PUNCHES HARD [[TAKE A DEEP BREATH]]

YOU TAKE A DEEP BREATH. EVERYDAY LIFE IS SO DIFFICULT TO HANDLE. YOU TRY TO THINK OF CONFORTING THINGS SO AS TO FORGET YOUR STRESS AND NOT HAVE A PANIC ATTACK. YOU CONCENTRATE IN YOUR BREATHING. YOU THINK OF SOFT SURFACE YOU THINK OF THE SMELL OF YOUR GRANDMA'S KITCHEN YOU THINK OF SUNBATHING IN THE BEACH YOU THINK OF BEING UNDERWATER YOU THINK OF FRESH BED LINEN YOU THINK OF WARM HUG YOU THINK OF THE ORANGE BOOTS YOU THINK OF A FUNNY MEME YOU THINK OF DANCING YOU THINK OF TUCA AND BERTIE YOU THINK OF A CHILDREN'S POEM YOU THINK OF YOUR RED SLIPPERS [[YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIEND]]

YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIEND AND THAT MAKES THE TINY PERSON WHO LIVES IN YOUR CHEST TO SMILE SOMETIMES EVERYDAY LIFE IS OVERWHEALMING YOU THINK THAT RELATIONSHIPS ARE HARD BUT NOT THAT HARD YOU THINK THAT RELATIONSHIPS SOFTEN YOUR SADNESS WHEN IT GETS ITCHY YOU THINK THAT, ONE DAY, ALL THESE CROPPED IMAGES WILL MAKE SENSE YOU DON'T HAVE TO WAX YOUR MOUSTACHE [[BUT MAYBE BLEECH YOUR EYEBROWS?]]

MAYBE YOU COULD BLEECH YOUR EYEBROWS. YOU LOOK AROUND. IT LOOKS LIKE IT IS GOING TO BE A CONCERT. THAT'S WEIRD. YOUR FRIEND COMES BACK WITH A NEW HAIRCUT! [[LIKE THE NEW HAIRCUT]] [[DON'T LIKE THE NEW HAIRCUT]]

YOU LOVE HER NEW LOOK! YOU TELL HER THAT SHE LOOKS HOT! SHE SMILES. THE HAIRDRESSER MAKES AN INPIRING SPEECH AND THIS REMINDS YOU OF A TED X TALK. YOU LOOK AT YOUR FRIEND AND YOU KNOW SHE KNOWS YOU WHAT YOU ARE ABOUT TO TELL BUT YOU SAY IT ANYWAY. THE BOY STARTS SINGING. THE LYRICS MAKE BRING YOU SADNESS BUT IN A SWEET WAY. [[JUMP CUT TO WASHING TEETH]]

YOU DON'T REALLY LIKE THE NEW HAISTYLE OF YOUR FRIEND. BUT YOU KNOW THAT YOU SHOULDN'T TELL HER. YOU THINK THAT THERE ARE TWO TYPES OF PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD. AND YOU ARE NOT THE TYPE WHO WOULDN'T BE SUPPORTIVE TO HER BESTFRIEND'S HAIR CHANGES. YOU TELL HER THAT SHE LOOKS HOOOOOT! AND THAT MAKES HER SMILE. THE HAIRDRESSER MAKES AN INPIRING SPEECH AND THIS REMINDS YOU OF A TED X TALK. YOU LOOK AT YOUR FRIEND AND YOU KNOW SHE KNOWS YOU WHAT YOU ARE ABOUT TO TELL BUT YOU SAY IT ANYWAY. THE BOY STARTS SINGING. THE LYRICS MAKE BRING YOU SADNESS BUT IN A SWEET WAY. [[JUMP CUT TO WASHING TEETH]]

YOU WASH YOUR TEETH. YOU WONDER WHY THERE ARE MIRRORS IN BATHROOMS. YOU CHECK AT YOUR PHONE AND YOU SEE THAT THE HOT GIRL HAS SENT YOU A MESSAGE. ──────────────────▒ ─────────────────░█ ────────────────███ ───────────────██ღ█ ──────────────██ღ▒█──────▒█ ─────────────██ღ░▒█───────██ ─────────────█ღ░░ღ█──────█ღ▒█ ────────────█▒ღ░▒ღ░█───██░ღღ█ ───────────░█ღ▒░░▒ღ░████ღღღ█ ───░───────█▒ღ▒░░░▒ღღღ░ღღღ██─────░█ ───▓█─────░█ღ▒░░░░░░░▒░ღღ██─────▓█░ ───██─────█▒ღ░░░░░░░░░░ღ█────▓▓██ ───██────██ღ▒░░░░░░░░░ღ██─░██ღ▒█ ──██ღ█──██ღ░▒░░░░░░░░░░ღ▓██▒ღღ█ ──█ღღ▓██▓ღ░░░▒░░░░░░░░▒░ღღღ░░▓█ ─██ღ▒▒ღღ░░ღღღღ░░▒░░░░ ღღღღ░░ღღღ██ ─█ღ▒ღღ█████████ღღ▒░ღ██████████ღ▒█░ ██ღღ▒████████████ღღ████████████░ღ█▒ █░ღღ████████████████████████████ღღ█ █▒ღ██████████████████████████████ღ█ ██ღღ████████████████████████████ღ██ ─██ღღ██████████████████████████ღ██ ──░██ღღ██████████████████████ღღ██ ────▓██ღ▒██████████████████▒ღ██ ───░──░███ღ▒████████████▒ღ███ ────░░───▒██ღღ████████▒ღ██ ───────────▒██ღ██████ღ██ ─────────────██ღ████ღ█ ───────────────█ღ██ღ█ ────────────────█ღღ█ ────────────────█ღ█░ ─────────────────██░